tables are turned

For three consecutive weeks.

I honestly don't want to lose such freedom in another 1 or 2 weeks' time.

I'm seriously not feeling how I'm supposed to be feeling right now. Can somebody please tell me why? It sucks a lot. Now I do understand why people say, expect the unexpected. What should I do now? Fucking jaded.

The tables are turned.

I can't believe I teared while talking to D.

Thanks for being there, babe xx

Jaded

Talked about last Friday night with Ling, Ed & Dal all over again in school today.

The teasing and all were frigging hilarious. HAHA & their expressions were seriously TOO entertaining!

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I don't want to think about anyone, anything, anyway

If there's a chance we'll break

I wanna smash into pieces

Let's make a big mistake

But I don't wanna think about it

I don't wanna think about it

My heart beats my head

& I'm letting it take me over

Melanie C - Think about it.

This describes exactly how I'm feeling now; Jaded.

Guilty pleasures

Zouk last night with 9 others, hell crazy night.

What happens in the club stays in the club.

Pleasures steal away the mind. This is so fucking true.

Losing control is merely an excuse.

Distracted much

I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M THIS DISTRACTED.

Mid-Oct, high time to do something about it. We only have THIS much time.

Black Label killed me

Can't believe Johnnie Walker Black Label actually killed me on Saturday night!! Got drunk for the very first time. Gonna be the first and very last time. Never ever will I wanna get this drunk anymore. Puked like hell & was TOTALLY wasted?! It was so fucking bad I swear. Really thankful for Ling, Dal & Ed who took care of me, sent me home and accompanied me till 6am!

Did it kill me or did I kill myself? Seriously.

Saturday afternoon

My dear babe :D

(Taken in August; bef I decided to snip off a whole 4-5inches of my hair!)

Hooked on going for haircuts. The last time I cut my hair was only a month ago! It's already the 1st of October which means 4 more weekends to November! I can't believe this, doesn't seem real at all?! I feel like a glutton sometimes or maybe all the time? Have been eating oreos since yesterday. I need to get back to the 'regulation of banks' chapter and perhaps munch on more oreos.. Saturday afternoon?

I hope tonight will be good. xx (although alcohol and period don't go together)