The worst feeling in the world is to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's funny and stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on, you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you do is push them farther and farther away. It's so hard to think back to how things used to be, look at it now, realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it.
It's really weird how I would force myself to think of how we used to be. I asked myself, what's the point of doing so? The only logical reason I could find is that I do not want to forget about us. Honestly, it's ridiculous how foolish and stupid I can get. It really is.
You know, I finally realized enough is enough because you're not worth it any more. You are really not.
They say, there will come a time when you believe everything is finished and that will be the beginning. I guess this is it. I'm out of this.
Haven't you heard? Cheating gets old, and once you are mature enough to stay faithful and want something real, that is the time you get played because karma's a bitch.
Today's Saturday and Saturday spells Zouk! Tonight will be a good night. It will be.
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