It's like I know I've to be stronger. I've to be so much tougher than this, but it just doesn't happen. Emotions, sometimes I seriously wish I do not have them at all. It's not like I want to be feeling down, it's just that I can't seem to find any reason to be happy. I thought I've guarded myself but apparently I'm falling through. It's harder than expected. I really should have known better. As though I was foolish enough to allow my heart to ache once more. There, I was right about how transient your infatuation would be.
Utterly ridiculous how I'm feeling so messed up inside. When will I ever know what do I want? Too uncertain and when it hits me, I’ll always find that bit of comfort in dwelling in the past. I really shouldn't be stuck in reminiscing and missing what’s too far gone. That itself is nothing more than pure stupidity.
A heart can't contain two. It should be empty. It really should be left that way. Maybe all that's needed is a closure to all these. Why won't this jadedness go away? I've been weary for way too long. SIGH.
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