Life as it is

#butter #wednesday

Epic night with F, L, YT & E. Broke my wedge, cheap champagne, never laughed so hard and much on the dancefloor before.

 #butter #friday

Drama never ends.

I really couldn't be more thankful for having those who really care to be in my life. I'm being constantly reminded that I'll only get stronger in time and that I deserve way better than just him. I honestly appreciate those words and reminders :') Really really do. Thanks for always being there :'')  x

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I admit, I was really upset about what you'd posted. I just couldn't believe it, I couldn't. It's terrifying and heartbreaking at the same time to watch a person change so much, especially the one whom I used to love all these years.

I'd locked the previous post; shifted it to Tumblr.

Just the last part of it:

Your actions have convinced me that you aren’t that great after all. Thank you for reminding me once more.

Evocation

“Pay attention to the ones who love you and also the ones who never could. Make sure to retain the moral of the story because no one likes to find themselves in the  same relationship over and over again. Don’t cheat yourself when it comes to love. Get everything you deserve plus a cherry on top.” 

Obvious as ever

Dearest cousiesss ♥♥♥

 Loving 1-caramel

 Salted Caramellllll, def better than Udders!

 Crazy pam

 Late night supper @ Rochor beancurd

 Epic 'Liangpopo' pose

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The last of 20 @ Zouk;

 Bumped into SZX! How rareeee ;)

 Look who's back from US! ;)

xxx

• Confession; Persistence; Fickle; Inconsistency; Sober thoughts.
• It shows a lot.
• The entire episode doesn't happen twice
• The tables are turned.
• Monday blues
• Another birthday card from UK
• An exception
• Procrastination might just kill me
• Absolute value
• No sense of urgency
• Replaying
• Prioritise what's worth prioritising
• Obvious as ever now that it's out of reach. Happens.
• Perturbing much
• Cheap thrills
• Take a chance
• It will pass
• Distractions
• Time and reminders
• Too many 'what-ifs' and 'should-haves'
• We had, we lost
• There's always a choice
• Hooked on Calvin Harris's Sweet Nothing
• Flirtationship; More than a friendship less than a relationship  - Tumblr

I remember exactly how I felt a year ago. Now, the tables are turned. Someday it will all straighten out somehow. It will, eventually.

Twenty one

First in seven.

Despite all, I'm thankful for the significant few who have always been there all these while. x

If a genie could grant me the following:

I WISH,

#01. to be happier

#02. something good will happen

#03. the year ahead would be a much better one.

Happy birthday, Tracy. Love yourself & be happy.

Be truly happy. ♥

Dinner & supper at 4 different stops with the girls last night! x

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 Look what came in the mail a week before my birthday! Alicia's letter from Canada x

 Brunch @ Toby's

 Mini advance 21st surprise! Thanks guys! :')

Simple yet significant gestures x

 I've been going on and on about how FAT I am right now so here's an evidence of it.

FACE, THIGHS & CALVES; TOO FATTTTTTTTTTTTTT. SIGH ;( NEED.TO.LOSE.WEIGHT.FOR.REAL.

Random picture from last weekend. Podium view.

2am last night before washing up.

& this shall be my outfit for tonight ;)

Loving this pastel combination x

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Take every chance, drop every fear.

Convince me to let go once in awhile, to throw caution to the wind. Sometimes, I tend to overanalyze situations, resulting in apparent pessimism. When I call this feeling “realism”, push me to be optimistic. Push me to dream a little bigger and get caught up in my dreams. And when I stray too far from the ground, pull me back down to Earth and remind me to be realistic.

Contradictions

The thing about emotions is that you'll never know how drastically it could change just by the slightest things. I should have known better. It's strange how I was absolutely nonchalant about it when I saw that for the first time last week. Probably because I thought you finally felt the bite of conscience after 3 months. But now, why again? Why or what is it that you want to know?

Felt an instant jerk of emotions, tasted tears. Two thoughts surfaced. I told myself I ought to believe the latter because it really only could be that.

It's purely just guilt. As simple as that.



Je suppose que je manque encore vous

Take heart

Sogurt  x

Agnes's 23rd & surprise proposal!

Friday @ Playnation

Kamikaze shots

Saturday @ Helipad; Halloween

OMFG I’M SO FUCKING HEAVY NOW. WTF, I SERIOUSLY NEED TO STOP EATING UNNECESSARILY NOW. SIGHHHHHHHHHHHH, IT’S INSANE.

I can't believe October swung by just like this. Day 1 of November. Things ended sooner than expected. Status quo. 54 days to X’mas. It’s been 13 weeks. Dreading the day I turn 21. Got hired by Frolick. Training starts in late November. Loving my fuschia coloured nails. Yam flavoured ice-cream didn't taste that bad. Can I have mochi? Chapter 5, macro is making more sense only because it's IS-LM. Perturbed by the transiency of the situation. Grey, way too grey. Speak and I'll continue. Happier days ahead. Take heart.  x

Too shy to ask, too proud to lose.

"FORGET WHAT YOU FEEL AND REMEMBER WHAT YOU DESERVE."

Keeping that in mind.