One-twelfth of 2013

X'mas picnic

Sis ♥

Guess who ;)

 Xuanxuan is soooooo CUTE!!!

HAHA

Gran's 87th! ♥♥ :)

 Din @ 2 Chefs

Girlfriends; missing Pam & Brens! x

Great?! 1/12 of the year is gone. New year's eve didn't seem like too long ago.. Why do I feel that time is passing by exceptionally quickly these days? Is this like some after 21 phenomenon? Sigh. On certain days I wish I've more than just 24 hours a day. I've absolutely zero self-discipline and minimal motivation. I seriously think procrastination is gonna screw me, big time. Please let me tide through the next 4.5 months. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Things took a turn on the first night of the year. Found familiarity in the midst of the unfamiliarity. I…… don’t know. I really wonder how long can you keep this going. I have my doubts as well. Taking things for granted would eventually follow after comfortability. & no, this can’t be a vicious cycle. I won’t permit this cycle to repeat. Nothing great ever comes that easy. I want to believe in second chances. I need greater conviction. Don’t prove me wrong ever again.

I hate how it is the time of the year when I ought to be studying for finals again. This doesn't feel right.. I've an ominous feeling about exams this May. Tell me about it.

SIGH. Wishes do come true, right?

To love and be loved.

Indeed.

x

"Come to think of it, I'm not entirely sure where I lost myself

Maybe it was those 8 hours of class time, lost in notes and due dates,
equations and definitions

In beds of strangers or old friends who I no longer know the whereabouts of

Was it in love lost and forgotten?

Perhaps words and friendly exchanges, greetings and goodbyes

Did I lose myself somewhere on those roads driven on late nights to places with people whose faces I won't ever recall?

Did I leave myself behind in books or shows or at the cinema?
In lonely coffee shops or crowded concert halls?

Or maybe it was in the ticking of clocks and the counting of time,
waiting for the better times that never came

Come to think of it, I'm not entirely sure I lost myself

I'm not entirely sure I ever had myself

Maybe all these places are where I've found myself"  - Anonymous

Fear versus Faith

"Fear is tormenting, distracting, and divides the mind; faith is encouraging, attracting, and provides confidence to the mind."

I've been constantly questioning myself if I can do this. It's petrifying to know how this fear is slowly consuming me in. To say that I'm fearful is merely an understatement. Then again, I would be lying if I say I didn't falter. I need that tenacity to see me through. I can only allow myself to be better than the present state and nothing lesser than that. So what's conclusive? I wish I know, really.
I'll hold back my words for now.


"Strength comes from living your truth."

NYE 2012

The last of 2012, first of 2013 ♥♥

#NYE #zouk #shots #erdinger #cards #forfeits #confetti #new beginning

xoxo

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It's the 7th day into the new year. The cycle commences once more. I seriously dread the first half of the year with all the panic about finals in May. It's less than 2 months to prelims and about 4 months to finals. Seriously, tell me about it. SIGHHHHH.

Felt heartened by actions of certain friends who are ever there to help and who are ever supportive of what I do. Blessed much  xx

Find a place inside where there's joy and the joy will burn out the pain.

Take chances. Take a lot of them, because honestly no matter where you end up and with whom, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are. You'll learn and grow with each choice you make.

2013; Embrace what will be.

Can't seem to put my thoughts into words right now. 2012 hasn't been a great year. I've seen, experienced and learnt so much this year. The break up was definitely something which really impacted me. I learnt what it meant by change. I've never been through such tremendous emotion fluctuations, I've never thought I would feel this devastated, I've never cried so much in a year, I've never really knew the meaning of broken till then.

One of the most significant things that I've realised is that the worst part of a broken relationship is not losing the one you love but losing yourself. Could almost comprehend what it means by that. Love yourself before expecting others to. I would like to believe that it can only get better. The downs in life are transient. Time heals and that's true.

The vision has never been clear. It is exasperating how I am compelled by such strong emotions and unconscious forces that often seem to find no coherent manifestation. Self-conviction seems to be failing me. Sigh. Mind over heart, please.

It's the beginning of a new year. I seriously need to learn to prioritise what's worth prioritising and stop wasting time on the things and people who aren't worth that bit of effort. You know they say the right people who belong in your life will come to you, and stay. I guess it's true that nothing worth having ever comes that easy. Lastly, I really ought keep those thoughts at the back of my mind.

"Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place." 

Dear 2013, please be a good year. May I find joy and happiness this year.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed.



x,
Tracy